lately I’ve been spending less time at the memory center. therapy has taken more of my days, and though I know I need it, I still miss being there. I miss the way presence feels in that place: the heartbeats I catch in the quiet of their eyes, the warmth that comes through a hand resting in mine.

on my last visit I brought my guitar. I didn’t play something I wrote. instead, I played a song that had been circling in my own head, one my mom has always loved. maybe you know it, too — it’s called heartbeats.

it felt right in that room. a song carried from my mother’s heart to mine, then offered forward again, into theirs.

I think that’s what I keep learning at the memory center: that even as memory shifts and fades, feeling still remains. music carries it. touch and love carry it.

here’s a small recording from that afternoon, the song we shared together.

17 responses to “heartbeats”

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    Willie Torres Jr.

    This is so beautiful, Cookie. That is one of my favorite songs, and the way you sang it is absolutely amazing…. Jose Gonzalez would be so proud and honored… It’s such a gift how music and love carry through even when memories fade.

    May the Lord continue to Bless you with strength, joy, and His peace as you share your heart with others. 🙏

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    1. when I’m able to go there, it feels like giving myself a gift, Willie. the people there make me feel so warm and cared for, even when their memories aren’t all there. and I love that you love that song. there’s just something about it that fills my heart. thank you, Willie, as always, for listening to me and for sharing your blessings. they mean so much to me. ♥️

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        Willie Torres Jr.

        You Are Loved my Dear Sister…

        God Bless You, God Bless Your Mama and Dear Abuelita…

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  2. You touched here one of the most important things of being human: receiving and giving the love and the good feelings. To keep them circulating so everyone can feel held and belonging. What beautiful thoughts and song, Cookie! Truly grateful for reading and listening to you early morning. You are a blessing to me and to many. A heartfelt thank you, dear one. Grateful for YOU, always! Infinite blessings, love, and light to you; have a peaceful and meaningful Sunday 🙏✨💖🌞🌻

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    1. 💞 I feel blessed, Susana, for all the heartbeats that I feel around me and that I carry inside of me. yours and so many others who show me love and compassion. I hope you have a beautiful Sunday, too. 💞

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  3. Hearing this, it shows how much you connect with and love this song cookie. Your exceptional guitar playing and emotional vocal shine in its presence. I played it three times in succession. You captured the inner soul of this song beautifully. I have never heard the song before, so thank you for the gift of first listening with your amazing delivery. I can’t say much more. No words I say here really match what I just heard. Thank you for sharing. 💫

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    1. o, Gray. thank you. I was hoping you would like it. the song has a special heartbeat all its own. you may have already discovered this, but the one known for singing it is José Gonzalez. he didn’t write it and I don’t know who did. I’m just glad they did. thank you again. ♥️

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      1. It’s perfect cookie. There are specific songs that come along, and they just settle into our soul, where they can then be expressed uniquely. This is one of yours. I’ll take a listen to Jose Gonzales. Thank you.

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  4. Absolutely beautiful. Blessings upon you and your family. 🙏❤️

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    1. o, how beautiful, thank you very much!

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  5. That is beautiful. Even if memory fades, feeling remains, and music really stirs up emotions, and even memories.

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    1. hi Sara. thank you. x

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  6. What beautiful thoughts of those you have come to love and care for Cookie. Can’t wait to hear the song. I’ll listen soon! Everyone is sleeping-;)💤

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    1. o, okay! (whispering) thank you, Cindy … x (quiet hug)

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  7. Heat-touching song there Cookie.

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    1. thanks Frank! I like singing it.

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