I don’t live in the safest part of town.

my neighborhood is one of those zip codes that lead the city in serious crimes. people here often feel hemmed in by violence, always scanning for a way out. and I get it.

just yesterday, in the shadow of the elevated train tracks, I saw a little kid lift his small fingers into the shape of two tiny pistols and fire off imaginary shots — pop pop — like he’d already seen too much.

but I don’t feel the same urgency to escape. this place holds me. it shapes me. just as I try to make sense of it in the songs I write.

there are small storefronts with dusty windows, corner bodegas where the air smells like fried plantains and cheap incense, and a church not far from me where, in the evenings, you can hear Ave Maria carried across the blocks like a prayer wrapped in static.

some streets are poorly lit. vacant lots sit forgotten, overgrown with silence and stories no one quite wants to tell.

Atlantic Avenue is its own kind of chaos — a street some folks avoid once the sun starts to slip. “don’t let the night catch you out there,” my abuela always warns. but I haven’t always listened.

still — I don’t dream of living anywhere else.

sometimes I need a break from it, though. I’ll get on my bike or skateboard and head out to other parts of Brooklyn, or across the city. it helps — just moving, seeing different blocks, letting things settle a bit.

I like the way the Verrazzano Bridge reveals itself when I ride down 5th Avenue. it’s not near where I live, but when I end up there, it always stops me for a second. the way it shows up feels like something patiently waiting, or just quietly watching.

but no matter how far I go, I always find my way back. this neighborhood raised me, and it keeps teaching me — how to listen, how to notice, and how to feel. it’s in the chords I reach for, and in the pauses between the words.

whether you’re a poet, a dancer, a painter, or a songwriter — the streets shape your rhythm, your palette, the silence between the lines.

but the feeling underneath it all — the ache, the beauty, the way love lingers in places, how some seasons won’t quite let go — that belongs to everyone, no matter where they’re from.

P.S. real-feel temp in Brooklyn today is 100 degrees. it’s summer. this is nABe —

I dream you here
we’re in Crown Heights
it’s so un-winter
you are the swings
in Arthur Somers Park
& I am all over you
& all day the
summer sky holds back
what it wants most to say
the same way
I keep words
beneath my clothes
I will try someday
to put winter away

29 responses to “nAbe”

  1. Sometimes it is not so much about the place but how it makes us feel and what it teaches us. As I was going through your beautifully penned text, it came to my mind the following Zen quote by Dogen Zenji (which resonates deeply with me): “If you cannot find the truth right where you are, where else do you expect to find it?” I think it depicts well the deepest meaning of your post. Loved your song; such a beautiful poem. Thank you, Cookie, for this touching post. You always leave me thinking about the deepest aspects of life. I appreciate you and your expressions. Sending you love, light, and blessings 🙏✨💖🌈🌻🌞

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    1. o, I love that quote, Susana. I’d never read it before. it makes me really happy to know that what I share here reaches you. sending love, light and blessings right back at you. x

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  2. You’re such a wonderful writer, cookie. Your words are always seeing, sensing, and feeling EVERYTHING! Every aspect of your. Curve. Edge. Shape.
    Beautiful.

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    1. thank you for saying that, Sheila. writing is something I’ve always loved. and I’ve learned that the more I do it, the less I spiral. it helps me stay steady and out of trouble.

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      1. Aww, staying steady is good, as Gray Summers says.

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  3. I cherish you, poet cookie. Thank you for this share. I love seeing (and hearing), through your eyes. Even if we move on, the streets that shape our early influences, never leave us. 🌇✨🎶

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  4. You have stepped up one massive gear here cookie. This piece ventures into opportunities for the writing of a book. Small collective individual stories. My daughter introduced me to Haruki Murakami, the novelist, and his descriptive passages about surroundings and their impacts. His short stories are individual small treasures. Masterpieces. As yours are, and especially here in stretching to a fuller form than previous small windows of unique observations within your life.

    Loved the ability to read the lyrics cookie. I suddenly realised, a couple of years ago, that having my Aphantasia, (lack of a mind’s eye), I always have to let song lyrics/words wash over and through the auditory senses if I’m doing other activities. Having music on in the background so to speak. I can’t visually bring the words, into being, behind my closed eyes. Hence they wash over the senses. Understanding, but not concretely able to cement down in the memory.

    What the written down poetically charged lyrics does here, is give synergy to the holistic auditory and visual energy to one of your songs for myself specifically. From when I was young and holding vinyl albums in my hands, and now with CD’s too, the covers and the pages of lyrics were/are always in my vision when sitting and listening to songs intently. I get annoyed when some CD prints are not visually user friendly. 😊

    Love the chord progression here and those beautiful little rhythmic ‘flicks’ between the latter chords is really impactful.

    Wonderful post full of amazing expression. Cheers cookie. 💫

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    1. a book, o, I don’t know, Gray. thank you. I like to write about what I’m feeling. I like to work at it. it keeps me focused and occupied. making a song feels more like home to me, though. it’s where I feel I belong. it’s hard but a different type of hard. there are more surprises in songwriting. like opening a box you find under your bed and not remembering what you may have left inside. I will include more lyrics in my posts. x

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      1. Thank you. You’re spot on. There are, as you say, amazing surprises when you can say to yourself ‘How did that happen?’ when a great melody or chord progression comes at you (from within) and hits a home run.

        Writing? I love journaling for life’s observations and experiences. Not as poetically insightful as yours. But it’s also nice writing weird little fictitious scenarios of imagined characters. I once made up little monthly January to December 12 different self hand made collective booklets about a family of mice. It was for our children and nephews and nieces. Each month a different adventure was had linked to the months’ special events. Christmas, Bonfire Night, Halloween, a Summer Holiday, etc. . Never wanted the stories published, but really good fun to pass the time. I suppose it keeps the mind active in exploring new ways to express in different artistic themes. Wouldn’t link the 12 stories to music and write a mouse opera though. 🐭😊. That would be weird. Mind you, Beatrix Potter did okay didn’t she. Cheers cookie. All the best. 💫

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      2. 🍪 + 🎸+ 🆒 Voice = 💫….😊. Cheers.

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  5. I love the tune, chords, and your words for this song. I love “rougher” parts of my city, too. I came here thinking I’d be Yaletown then ended up East Van. Don’t regret a thing.

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    1. thank you, Sara. no regret, I love that. it reminds me of what Susana wrote: “If you cannot find the truth right where you are, where else do you expect to find it?” those words keep whispering to me.

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      1. YES that is a good quote. I haven’t ever heard it before, but I like that it resonates with you & that is true, really. The truth exists everywhere.

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  6. Your words have substance and such meaning behind each one and are goosebump good, Cookie!! These lines truly hit me “this neighborhood raised me, and it keeps teaching me — how to listen, how to notice, and how to feel. it’s in the chords I reach for, and in the pauses between the words.
    I was scared of my shadow growing up and I lived in a small suburban town that was safe but my internal world felt disruptive and scary. I feared my mother’s terrifying stories. You words are such an invitation that breathe life into living life fully. “this neighborhood raised me, and it keeps teaching me — how to listen, how to notice, and how to feel. it’s in the chords I reach for, and in the pauses between the words.” I would prefer you staying off those streets too though, like I tell my kids now. 😂🩷

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    1. abuela always jokes that if anyone ever touched me, she’d launch out the window like Supergirl and deal with it. no one’s ever dared — maybe that’s enough to keep them away. 💕🦸‍♀️

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      1. I love your abuela with a heart of gold! I’ll be like superwoman and fly in and help her! 💗

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  7. home is home right…not just the place…but the feelings that come with it…what we’ve made of it…shared it with … grew not just up in it…but also grew with it …

    funny enough… finding myself at such a crossroad of late…home vs not home lol🤭

    “that belongs to everyone …” precious to feel isn’t…

    Hope you well, Cookie….miss you lots…🤍🤗

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    1. I miss *you* very much — and your beautiful poems. come back soon. x

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      1. soon…🤞
        take care okay…🤍

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  8. That’s a really evocative and lovely post Cookie, and it’s always good to hear your songs too.

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    1. hi Frank! I’m happy you stopped by. and thanks.

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    Willie Torres Jr.

    WoW, what a Beautiful song… Cookie, your words paint the streets with soul. There must be Puerto Rican somewhere in your blood, because we are too alike in many ways. I felt this deeply, the ache, the beauty, the roots. Thank you for sharing your heart.

    Hugs and Blessings to you, your Mom and Abuelita..

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    1. hi Willie, I’m fully Spanish on both sides of my family, pretty sure! but I have a feeling our stories intersect in some way, and that’s where our connection comes from. thank you so much for liking my song. it truly means the world to me.

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        Willie Torres Jr.

        You are very welcome. Always my pleasure…

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