st saviour

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popular vs. invisible
insiders vs. outsiders
winners vs. losers
normal vs. freak

I always felt the kids on the left hated me. they sure acted like they did.

a few years later things hit different. I now see that if anything they were afraid. not of me. of themselves. and being like everyone else.

this is a new song, called st saviour.

Saint Saviour High School is a private Roman Catholic high school located in Park Slope, on the west side of Brooklyn.

it sucks when you’re 16 and you’re told you don’t belong someplace. it can destroy you on epic levels, and it did. but the real challenge is never the people beyond the maroon double doors. it’s always inside you.

when you finally figure out that you belong no where, that you actually belong to yourself and everywhere, then you become your own saint, you’re free, you’re bigger than high school.

26 responses to “st saviour”

  1. Susana Cabaço Avatar
    Susana Cabaço

    “You actually belong to yourself and everywhere” – these are profound and wise words, Cookie. You said it all from a higher perspective. It is so, and when we realize it, everything falls into place, we included! Thank you so much for this. I really appreciate it and totally subscribe it. Blessed Sunday, my friend. May the LIGHT be always with you 🙏💫

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      it’s interesting what a few years out of high school can do to someone. 🙂 thank you for being with me. xo

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      1. Susana Cabaço Avatar
        Susana Cabaço

        I am glad you are part of my friends 🙏💫💖🍀

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  2. Sonali Avatar
    Sonali

    I wish someone would have told me this when I was 14. Loved this post ♥

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      cookie

      that means everything to me, thank you

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      1. Sonali Avatar
        Sonali

        You’re most welcome. Keep writing ♥

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  3. Sara Flower Avatar
    Sara Flower

    You’re right & very wise to see that already. You belong to you & home can be anywhere.
    I didn’t have friends through most of my teen years since we went to a private Christian school & I didn’t want to be like the girls there. I did want friends but not that kind. Other kids came and I was able to socialize better eventually but there were no close friends. I had my younger sister who was bullied by the girls her age so we mostly hung out together.
    I think its harder when you want to belong but can’t. I always preferred being an alien, until recently.

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      I hung with kids who I felt got me on some level. but they didn’t have my back. in the end there was no one except my mom and grandmother, who were there all along.

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        Sara Flower

        I’m sorry they didn’t end up having your back.
        Thats definitely a rare thing. People who stick with you when it matters the most rather than just seeking someone out to pass the time or not to be alone.

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  4. Sara Flower Avatar
    Sara Flower

    Also, amazing song. ❤️

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      thank you Sara. it makes me so happy when you post and tell me so.

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        Sara Flower

        I love the vibe of your music.
        I hope you’re well!

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        cookie

        thank you for asking, Sara. I have some upper respiratory issues now. ugh. it will take a couple of weeks, the doctor said. I just have to be patient and drink plenty of water. I will post another new song later today.

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      3. Sara Flower Avatar
        Sara Flower

        Good idea & please drink some tea!
        Good idea to post a new song too. ❤️

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        cookie

        there is a new song in the post I named ritual. I hope you like it, Sara.

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  5. Michele Lee Avatar
    Michele Lee

    Right! 👏🏻 A brilliant revelation at any age, but that discovery will serve you well!

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      cookie

      🤍

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  6. Michele Lee Avatar
    Michele Lee

    P.S. Thanks for the tune, cookie! 🎸🎶

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      cookie

      o, anytime

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  7. graysummers Avatar
    graysummers

    Wise words cookie. And, as in the comments, experienced by many too. Great to share these thoughts, with a parallel song too. In the 1960s, mine was Grammar School (won a place there) as a working class kid. But did find balance within the ‘posh and strict’ system values eventually. As you say, inner spirit can bring you to the winning side in both the experiences there at the time and prepare you for when you leave to fight other ‘life throws at you’s’. The song? Love the upwards dynamic change in your guitar intensity when ‘Wow’ hits. Great tune as always. Love the verse observational and honest lyrics into the elongated ear worm catchiness of the ‘Wow’. I loved T.Rex’s Hot Love and The Beatles Hey Jude endings for the same reason. Wow? Now an adopted future vocalised tuneful Mantra for myself to keep for special visual or experiential occasions. Cheers cookie. A treasure blog as ever. All the best.

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      I wish I had the tools to overcome the bullying when it was happening. but now I can say I’m even grateful on some weird level for the experience. maybe this is something for a future post. now and then people say kind things to me about my music, and that always feels good. but the way you do … you make me feel really special. thank you, Gray.

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      1. graysummers Avatar
        graysummers

        The bullying in certain arenas is something that carries on through life, from time to time, I suppose. I have had it happen on occasions over the decades of professional life. But the good vibes far, far outweigh them. And, yes, school days were sink or swim. Older age, and ongoing age, gives you comfort of experience. And surviving what was thrown at you.

        Your songwriting and delivery is very special cookie. I suppose I get the understanding of feeling good about others’ contributions from my own songwriting efforts. What it truly takes to have the confidence to present songs for people to listen to. It’s not bravado. Not showing off. A song? It’s a love letter to yourself. And once written you then send it out there for others’ to open it up and witness who you intrinsically are. And how you see the world. It’s certainly wearing your heart on your sleeve isn’t it. 😊 Cheers cookie.

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        cookie

        a love letter to yourself, I really like that

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      3. graysummers Avatar
        graysummers

        Just got the guitar bridge this afternoon for the 1979 Hohner. Came from the Jamaica district of New York. So can start setting up the guitar now. Cheers.

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        cookie

        ooh, imported from Queens!

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      5. graysummers Avatar
        graysummers

        Yes. Setting up tomorrow. 😊

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