playing notes is the basic idea of music. but it’s an impression, and just a shallow one. it’s not enough to play the notes.

what I really have to do as a musician is everything that is not in the notation (which by the way I can’t read anyway).

the same way I need time with my instruments to piece together notes, I need time with people to understand and interpret them.

it’s the people and their lives I notice when I’m not with my guitar or at the piano that I find so interesting and want to explore through the soundboard, the strings, bridges, keys and pedals.

this is what it means to me to make music. it’s observing and listening to the human heart as it encounters, accepts, and learns to live from whatever rubs up against it. this is what I’m trying to give voice to.

second comes the relief and the joy of putting my fingers on the fretboard, playing in an afternoon when I have no one to talk to, or care to, but me, the musician. it’s being alone in my room but not lonely, surrounded by demons, angels and truths, searching for a song in a quiet, haunted place.

12 responses to “making music”

  1. Wow. I love this song! It’s very deep and melancholic – it describes feeling depressed and hopeless very well.
    I love how you word it: searching for a song in a quiet, haunted place. A song is indeed so much more than notes. ❤

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    1. dear Sara, I wish I could look out into an audience and spot you there, enjoying my music. for me that would be, like, everything. I’m honored that what I do holds some meaning for you. xo

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      1. Well that would be cool to see you play live.
        Your music carries a lot of heart and meaning. I’m so glad I got to discover you on here. 🙂

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  2. You are doing more than trying, you are doing, giving your voice to your music, and your words, which of course includes your comments to others. Beautiful music flows through you in many ways, cookie. Memorable ending with this personal essay. 👏🏻

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    1. 🤍 I count you among the angels

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      1. My morning is sweetened by your mention. 😇 Thank you very much gentle soul. 🤍

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  3. very few and rare too…. those like you that take that time to stop and notice others enough to understand something of them…..as you say…”
    “this is what I’m trying to give voice to”

    may happy souls cross paths with you, Cookie….to your quiet haunted place some joys too✨
    beautiful share🤍

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    1. 🤍 that’s a wish and a prayer you have helped come true

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      1. it’s a sure thank you and you welcome too🤍

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  4. Love your descriptive process of song writing cookie. Funny how the same song can change each time sung. Tonality range, depth of emotion at particular times, inner and outer synergy with voice blending with the instrument played, feelings of what the day will bring ahead, or has already brought, if you are sharing with others in the room and they too become emotionally involved. You have a great way of putting over the experience of songwriting cookie. Cheers.

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    1. for me I think it’s because I am so untrained and technically unskilled I count more on other things to lend me some strength, I don’t really know, it’s still such a mysterious thing to me that I could sit there and make anything. thank you, it’s really cool of you to make time for me I always look forward to hearing what you have to say.

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      1. I just have a few past experiences cookie based on a lot of presented historical challenges that are into 6 decades plus now. We are both songwriters with the ability to pour emotional and observational thoughts into our world. One of my latest blogs said that music was my ever present joy within all things in life’s tried outs. I bet you will be the same further down the line. Writing songs and hopefully to millions and not dozens. But, on reflection? I loved those dozens that truly listened. They became the solid heartbeat memories, not whimsical whispers, to carry on writing. All the best.

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